Funk

This girl's been in a funk. Not necessarily a bad funk, just a funk. As I stated in a previous post I haven't been able to get off my butt to run. Actually, I have run but I just can't seem to get onto a schedule. The alarm will go off and I'll tell myself, "I'll run tomorrow," reset my alarm, and roll over for another hour of sleep. This wouldn't be so bad but when I'm doing it more days than not it's not a good thing. I'm maintaining my minimum of 10 miles a week but I feel like I'm doing so little versus what I was doing a couple months ago. Mind you I'm not training for a Half but still, I should have some fire under my butt. And it's not like I'm burned out on running. If anything I just getting to the "sweet" part. If I hold guilt over myself I tend to get myself going but there are some days that it doesn't work. So today I reset my alarm and slept one more hour. But come the end of the workday I told myself, "I gotta run," and held myself to it. It was tough with the humidity and the weather heating back up but as always it was worth the sweat and discomfort.

Not only am I having a funk in running but obviously my blogging too. I've backed off of my blogging for some unknown reason. I seem to always have something else going on, and I'm not really the type of person to sit down and write a line or two. It will always be a book.

So the only thing I can attribute this to is my medication I've been on for 2 months. It may be, it may not be. This was one of my biggest concerns of getting on the medication....going from one extreme to the other. Obsessive to not caring. There have been some changes, obviously, but I do have some obsessive characteristics that remain. I do know this, I feel a difference in my general attitude and day-to-day activities that I'm back to the ol' Heidi. The one I remember from high school. Of course I've had some changes that come with time and age since then, but it's nice to have that carefree, happy, positive attitude, even if it's chemically induced. For instance....I'm the only person at work today with a full work schedule?? Ah, who cares. It's going to be a good day and this too shall pass. As with everything I'm trying to find that happy medium and although I'm not there and may never be at least I'm trying and it's much easier to bear.

To quickly run through our past weekend. J and Cass came into town on Thursday and we had a cookout Friday with them and both sets of 'rents. That evening we found the perfect spot to watch fireworks. We climbed on the roof of David's work van and took them in. It was a moment to remember and one I hope to repeat in years to come. Following firework everyone came to our house for a fire and wine. On Saturday the guys had a day of golf while the girls had a "spa" day. Cass, Tara, and Ande' all got massages from Sita. And we just hung out in general. That afternoon we went to a Greyhound fundraiser and had a ton of fun checking out all the pups. Pretty cool. The evening finished with a graduation party for David's cousin. On Sunday we took a trip down to Mansfield with David's 'rents and Grandma. It was Grandma Maria's birthday on the 4th and we celebrated by taking her to lunch and the Kingwood Center. We had a full weekend and I had a ton of chances to take some pictures and experiment with the new camera, which I LOVE by the way. Be sure to check out the pictures. It will take me some time to get used to it and I'm sure I'll never use it to it's full potential but I can have fun trying.