If I Knew Then What I Know Now....
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
Spring Is Here....I Think
We had a fun weekend. Mr. Smith's, J and Cass in town, got to see Cassidy and take her for her first Slurpee experience, playtime in the backyard with the kids, family dinner on Sunday, which included David's 'rents, first ride on Mo', and a backyard fire with wine to end the weekend on Sunday night. I didn't capture many pictures, but did get a few. Check out our Flickr Collection to see them.
Monday, April 06, 2009
Overrated
As time goes on, things change....I guess that's no surprise. I'm not exactly sure, but in the past few weeks I've found my thoughts, lifestyle trends, and general attitude changing. What I wear, how I see myself, how I see others see me, my goals, my priorities, what I feel is important.....they're all changing. I can't explain my thoughts or choices, as I'm still trying to wrap my brain around them. But I do know that I've been told many of times, "You'll go through many life changes." I can only guess this is one of those times. It's okay though. That's what makes life, well, life. We learn, we grow, we adjust as necessary.
I'm sure I can guarantee that I'll never be the calm, laid back, chill person. However, as time goes on I'm leaning that way. Maybe it's just David wearing off on me. It's not that I don't care about what I wear, or how people see me, or that I don't care about life. I think it's that I've found that certain things are overrated and aren't as important as people make them. I just have to find what matters to me, and go with it.
For instance, something so simple as wearing makeup. Yeah, I know simple and stupid. However in the scheme of things this is something I can actually put into words. I'm not a huge makeup fan. Thankfully David's not either. When it comes down to it, he'd prefer no makeup at all. Of course I've always worn something, just for the simple fact that "it's the thing to do." Shoot, it only took how many years to ask, "why the hell do I put something on my face, when A-I don't like it and B-my husband doesn't either?" I'm not going to say I'll never wear makeup but I have to admit, I'm not exactly sure when the last time I did was. And when I did it was eyeshadow. Last time I wore mascara and lipstick.....7 years ago, our wedding. Foundation and blush....well over a year ago. But you know what? I'm happy with that choice, even when the it's not the norm.
Times are changing. Thoughts are changing.
I'm sure I can guarantee that I'll never be the calm, laid back, chill person. However, as time goes on I'm leaning that way. Maybe it's just David wearing off on me. It's not that I don't care about what I wear, or how people see me, or that I don't care about life. I think it's that I've found that certain things are overrated and aren't as important as people make them. I just have to find what matters to me, and go with it.
For instance, something so simple as wearing makeup. Yeah, I know simple and stupid. However in the scheme of things this is something I can actually put into words. I'm not a huge makeup fan. Thankfully David's not either. When it comes down to it, he'd prefer no makeup at all. Of course I've always worn something, just for the simple fact that "it's the thing to do." Shoot, it only took how many years to ask, "why the hell do I put something on my face, when A-I don't like it and B-my husband doesn't either?" I'm not going to say I'll never wear makeup but I have to admit, I'm not exactly sure when the last time I did was. And when I did it was eyeshadow. Last time I wore mascara and lipstick.....7 years ago, our wedding. Foundation and blush....well over a year ago. But you know what? I'm happy with that choice, even when the it's not the norm.
Times are changing. Thoughts are changing.
Monday, March 30, 2009
We received some mail last Friday......
With the return address as....
David couldn't open it fast enough. Although his enlistment is finished he couldn't help but think that the piece of mail contained orders. Thankfully it wasn't and it only contained this.....
Whew!
With the return address as....
David couldn't open it fast enough. Although his enlistment is finished he couldn't help but think that the piece of mail contained orders. Thankfully it wasn't and it only contained this.....
Whew!
Where's Viking?
Viking's found a new hiding place. Can you find him?
So much for putting a protective blanket on "his" recliner.
So much for putting a protective blanket on "his" recliner.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Foot Model?
I just happened to be doing a search on ebay for a new pair of sandals for David. We were looking for a specific style, as he already has a pair and loves them. After performing the search I found some and while looking at the picture thought that it looked very familiar. After further investigation I realized that it was most definitely one of the pictures I had taken of David's foot and posted to our Flickr account. Ha! Of course we could easily get upset and ask them to take it down but we don't really care. In all honesty we thought it was quite funny and had a good laugh. Who would've guessed....David, a foot model.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
No No Gadget....Run!
I had this afternoon off. I had no set plans other than having Sita over so I can be her guinea pig for learning a new massage technique. The rest of the afternoon was allowing myself to chill. Although we haven't been busy at work (economy) it's hard not to come home exhausted. It's also no surprise that I feel I constantly have to be doing something. Checking something on the Internet, running, cleaning. I can only guess that I'm getting spring fever, but this anxiety is driving me nuts. I just wanted to relax, or at least try. So I sat. And sat some more. Then debated whether to run. I had absolutely no desire to go to the gym to run. I noticed the sun had come out so I figured running outside was an option. Weather.com said it was 34 degrees but my house readout said 53 degrees. I figured I'd be fine. Why not start my fun run series today?
I told David my dilemma and idea about fun runs last night. He was supportive...at the same time all is said was, "You know it's not always about the distance and speed. Just run to run." Ding! Ding! Ding! That's it! So simple, but hearing it made so much sense.
I'm a numbers person. A person that likes black/white. Of course there's a time and a place for this thinking. Unfortunately having this mindset all of the time can kill you. Kill in the sense of life experiences and just plain happiness. I've known this all along, but as I get older and time goes on I'm realizing it more. I don't know if I can change myself. I've been this way for so long it's going to be hard and darn near impossible. Any changes will be small and take time, but it's worth the venture and attention.
So....back to my first fun run.....I jumped in a pair of shorts, an under armour, laced up, and grabbed my pepper spray. I headed out with no gadgets or unnecessary extras. No Garmin, no iPod, no Bondi Band, no sunglasses, no SPIbelt, no cell phone. In other words, just like when I started running. I had no set route or set distance. I just went. Ahhhh, it was nice. I listened to my surroundings and more importantly my body. Don't get me wrong, I love listening to music and I can also have thoughts at the same time, but having my ears free to hear while having thoughts fill my brain, I loved it. I couldn't look at my Garmin to see how far I'd gone or how fast I was going. Once again, I just went the speed that felt good.
I came back with a good sweat, feeling revived, and just good. I'm digging my fun run idea. This was a great reminder that sometimes you need to take a step back to move forward.
I told David my dilemma and idea about fun runs last night. He was supportive...at the same time all is said was, "You know it's not always about the distance and speed. Just run to run." Ding! Ding! Ding! That's it! So simple, but hearing it made so much sense.
I'm a numbers person. A person that likes black/white. Of course there's a time and a place for this thinking. Unfortunately having this mindset all of the time can kill you. Kill in the sense of life experiences and just plain happiness. I've known this all along, but as I get older and time goes on I'm realizing it more. I don't know if I can change myself. I've been this way for so long it's going to be hard and darn near impossible. Any changes will be small and take time, but it's worth the venture and attention.
So....back to my first fun run.....I jumped in a pair of shorts, an under armour, laced up, and grabbed my pepper spray. I headed out with no gadgets or unnecessary extras. No Garmin, no iPod, no Bondi Band, no sunglasses, no SPIbelt, no cell phone. In other words, just like when I started running. I had no set route or set distance. I just went. Ahhhh, it was nice. I listened to my surroundings and more importantly my body. Don't get me wrong, I love listening to music and I can also have thoughts at the same time, but having my ears free to hear while having thoughts fill my brain, I loved it. I couldn't look at my Garmin to see how far I'd gone or how fast I was going. Once again, I just went the speed that felt good.
I came back with a good sweat, feeling revived, and just good. I'm digging my fun run idea. This was a great reminder that sometimes you need to take a step back to move forward.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Choices And Decisions
A goal I had for this year, along with an item I have on my D.R.E.A.M. list, was to run a marathon. Over the past month and a half I've been researching our options. Debating the best location, time of the year, expected weather, etc. David cannot run during the cold months due to his poor circulation. No joke. It's impossible. Basically what it came down to was a fall marathon in hopes of having a successful summer training season. We have it narrowed now to the Marine Corps Marathon, run in Washington DC, in October. I was excited. It gave me that drive that I needed to get through the last month. However, we couldn't register given that open registration doesn't begin until April 1st. Entrant space fills up immediately, so if this is something we want to do, we have to hop on it.
As April 1st comes closer and closer I'm having doubts about the idea of running that marathon. Those doubts don't come from actually thinking I can do it or not wanting to do it. It's the oddest feeling. I guess what it comes down to it, I think to myself, "Why do I need all of the bells and whistles of an official marathon?" I can't help but want it, but I don't need it. However, I do need running.
Unfortunately this winter has been a bear on my running energy. I want to run, but at the same time, I don't. It's a constant battle in my head. Of course running has always been a love/hate relationship with me, but as this winter goes on, it's getting harder and harder. I can only guess that this negativity comes from staring at a white cinder block wall. I'm thankful that I have the option to run on a 'mill, but in the end it seems to kill me. In addition, after running outside last week I realized even with my minimum 3 times a week 3 miles on the 'mill, there are certain muscles that are out of shape. I remember absolutely hating the 'mill at first, thinking it was so hard. I must have adjusted and now running outside is going to be a challenge again.
At the same time I just want to have the WANT to run. I know it feels great afterwards, but for some reason it's hard for me to remember that before the run. During the past 2 years I was wondering when my "running spirit" would cease....the beginners high lasted a lot longer than I expected. The thing is, I know deep down I still love it and want it. Not to mention I know it wasn't just a fad and it will be part of the rest of my life. I'm just trying to get back that spirit I once had.
Training for a marathon would put fire under my ass to get out there and run. I also know with better weather around the corner, I'll be able to get out and do my thing. I'm hoping that will lift my spirits. So where does that leave me? I'm not 100% sure. But this is what I've come up with so far....fun runs. No, I'm not talking about officially organized fun runs. I'm talking about, I, Heidi, will find a place to go run, map it out, and go on an adventure. Of course I can't do this daily, but maybe if I make it a once a week thing, my spirit will rise. Just an idea, but it's worth a try. As for the marathon.....I'm not committing one way or the other as to whether the Marine Corps Marathon is a go. I'm leaning toward the NO go side, but I'll know April 1st. If it is a no go, I do have an idea waiting in the wings. My marathon dream will not die, it will have a twist. Stay tuned.....
As April 1st comes closer and closer I'm having doubts about the idea of running that marathon. Those doubts don't come from actually thinking I can do it or not wanting to do it. It's the oddest feeling. I guess what it comes down to it, I think to myself, "Why do I need all of the bells and whistles of an official marathon?" I can't help but want it, but I don't need it. However, I do need running.
Unfortunately this winter has been a bear on my running energy. I want to run, but at the same time, I don't. It's a constant battle in my head. Of course running has always been a love/hate relationship with me, but as this winter goes on, it's getting harder and harder. I can only guess that this negativity comes from staring at a white cinder block wall. I'm thankful that I have the option to run on a 'mill, but in the end it seems to kill me. In addition, after running outside last week I realized even with my minimum 3 times a week 3 miles on the 'mill, there are certain muscles that are out of shape. I remember absolutely hating the 'mill at first, thinking it was so hard. I must have adjusted and now running outside is going to be a challenge again.
At the same time I just want to have the WANT to run. I know it feels great afterwards, but for some reason it's hard for me to remember that before the run. During the past 2 years I was wondering when my "running spirit" would cease....the beginners high lasted a lot longer than I expected. The thing is, I know deep down I still love it and want it. Not to mention I know it wasn't just a fad and it will be part of the rest of my life. I'm just trying to get back that spirit I once had.
Training for a marathon would put fire under my ass to get out there and run. I also know with better weather around the corner, I'll be able to get out and do my thing. I'm hoping that will lift my spirits. So where does that leave me? I'm not 100% sure. But this is what I've come up with so far....fun runs. No, I'm not talking about officially organized fun runs. I'm talking about, I, Heidi, will find a place to go run, map it out, and go on an adventure. Of course I can't do this daily, but maybe if I make it a once a week thing, my spirit will rise. Just an idea, but it's worth a try. As for the marathon.....I'm not committing one way or the other as to whether the Marine Corps Marathon is a go. I'm leaning toward the NO go side, but I'll know April 1st. If it is a no go, I do have an idea waiting in the wings. My marathon dream will not die, it will have a twist. Stay tuned.....
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
80's Child
Sometimes I wish I had been born just a few years earlier. Although I was born in the 80's I wasn't able to fully appreciate it given my age.
When it comes to music, I love everything....but I've got to admit that yes, I am an 80's fan. Not so much the trends, but I love rocking out to some 80's music. You can only guess that I have a few songs on my iPod. One being.....
When it comes to music, I love everything....but I've got to admit that yes, I am an 80's fan. Not so much the trends, but I love rocking out to some 80's music. You can only guess that I have a few songs on my iPod. One being.....
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